One for the road.

I can't stomach being here for much longer. He ruined me. I've never felt so angry or broken. I feel like no one wants to hear it and I understand that.. but I also feel like.. fuck, where do you turn then?

Every song I hear that reminds me of him makes me sick to my stomach. Every memory, every smell, every inside joke.. I'm sick.

I hope this cross-country road trip with Court pans out because I need it to at least feel a little bit sane.

I wish I never burned my bridges with Scott. I want to take that all back and I've never known the feeling of someone being completely done with me until him. I wish I could convince him otherwise.

I wish my mind wasn't such a jumbled mess of hurt and anger and complete and utter brokenness. Furthermore, I wish I was my old self. I have never been the one to be negative and lately I've only been seeing red.