As she proded and pressed on organs I don't even know the names of, I figured this was the best place, if any, for bantering small talk.
"So, my sister's having a baby." Unenthusiastic? Maybe. It's hard to be enthusiastic about fertility when that's the last thing I want.
"OH MY!!!!!" I felt a jerk inside of me, possibly a thumbs up. She's way too enthusiastic about life. Her zealous nature makes up for my lack there of. "You know, Twenty-five years old.. wow, that's a fantastic time to rear a child. Twenty-five is when your life should begin! This is going to change you, ya know. Okay, done with the internal. A baby! Yes!"
How she could bounce back and forth from vagina business to excitement to vagina business, boggles my racing mind.
Hmm.. I wondered if she misunderstood and heard "I'm" instead of "my sister".
"How old are you? Twenty-two.. almost twenty-three? You better get thinking about these life lessons, miss!"
While dressing, I couldn't help but think of twenty-five. Twenty-five. 25. 2-5. Two decades plus five. A baby at that age? Not even three years to find a suitable mate and get me knocked up. I'm all about unconditional love from a lump of flesh that just vomits and shits, but at twenty-five.. I don't know.
My life is going to change and I'm okay with that. A little more than okay. Ya know what, maybe I'm even enthusiastic.
Maybe.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
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When I was 18 I set this ridiculous goal of being married with my first kid by 25. I came way later in my parents life and i've always hated and vowed to have kids early...
But then life happens and you learn how unscripted it is and how you will never have any control over the way things are supposed to happen.
I'm the queen of trying to will things to happen.
I've mostly just stopped thinking about it and hope it will happen when it's supposed to.
I don't like waiting for life!
Especially when I have no idea what I am really waiting for.
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