My sister is going to jail soon.
If I could go in her place, I would in less than a heartbeat.
My life, our lives, everyone's lives are in shambles.
I've felt really numb for the last few days just thinking about her.
I'm terrified for when I stop feeling numb and start to feel.
As much as I hope someone is there to pick me up and hug me and tell me they love me, I really hope I'll be able to do some of it myself.
I've been trying to be strong for her, but I feel like she's realizing I was never the strong one in the family. I never really could be the strong one as hard as I tried.
I feel silly for always talking about boys. But sometimes I just enjoy talking about the petty things in life that don't matter and never will matter in retrospect. It's better than talking about this. It's better than talking about what's consuming my mind lately.
I want Nick to come home. I want Stephanie to come home. I want Sara's cramps to get a grip!
I don't care who sleeps next to me in my bed anymore, I just don't want to sleep in this apartment alone and have nightmares each night.
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4 comments:
I'll sleep next to you everynight as long as i can lock petey out.
Lets hang tomorrow (night).. i work till 10.
i'm so sorry about laura
Of course, we can put Petey in his tiny crate because he has been extra bitey lately.
I work until 9pm and then have to work again at 7am. Shit.
Do you work Monday? I work til 3pm but I wanted to rent some boats on Hoyt Lake in Delaware Park. It's only like $10 or so.
I love you Trisha.
And I'm really sorry everything is ending up this way. I pray for her. I wish there was more I could do. Whenever you need a ear or even someone to scream at... I'm your girl.
CHIN UP
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