I feel like a fucking prisoner in my own city. Every time Joe gets mad that I refuse to talk to him on the phone he threatens to make up an awful lie to tell one of my friends so that they'll hate me. I'm scared that one time, they'll believe it, they'll believe him.. and get mad at me. He's so fucking manipulative it makes me sick. I truly want him to just leave me alone. I try ignoring him all day, but after 200+ text messages, it's hard. I don't want to change my phone number, but I might have to.
I'm terrified to see him out. Absolutely terrified. Who knows.. he's so fucking bi-polar that he could cry because he missed me or pick up a fucking beer bottle and throw it in my face. I really don't want to find out which one.
I wish I never ever dated him. Ever. He broke my fucking heart by acting like a psycho. He basically broke up with me. I always said that if anyone broke my heart, I'd never fucking talk to them again. I want him the fuck out of my life so bad. I don't care how good he's doing at his new job, how in shape he is, how well counseling is going, how much money he has saved up.. you can put a tie on a bag of garbage, but it'll still be a bag of garbage.
I hope he lures another helpless person into his fucking crazy web and she breaks his goddamn heart into a million pieces by being horribly mean, degrading, insulting and abusive to him.
I hope I'll be done talking about this someday soon. FUCK.
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“ A merging of two people is an impossibility, and where it seems to exist, it is a hemming-in, a mutual consent that robs one party or both parties of their fullest freedom and development. But once the realization is accepted that even between the closest people infinite distances exist, a marvelous living side-by-side can grow up for them, if they succeed in loving the expanse between them, which gives them the possibility of always seeing each other as a whole and before an immense sky.
—
Rainer Maria Rilke
I hope you find your whole, and that he lives up to everything you truly deserve, and I hope the two of you enjoy the view :)
I miss you.
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